C'mon Get Happy!

I hope everyone is having an amazing 2012 so far...I realize that we are only 5 days into it...but still.We are in the process of taking down all of our Christmas decorations.  I know that it's bad luck for a Christmas tree to see the new year, but we just didn't have time this year to rip it down before the first. Ah well...Our little house looks so much bigger with everything down and put away haha.  You don't realize how gigantic your tree is until you see the space that it took up.

We had a great New Years Eve with friends.  We ate some delicious food, drank champagne, and danced our little hearts out with Wii dance...We had a blast!  My husband is a new years baby so he really enjoyed ringing in his birthday with friends and alcohol haha.  We have some pretty darn good friends, and it was a privilege to spend a fun night with all of them.  The only bad thing was that I ended up with a spinal sprain somehow haha....hmmm...to vigorous with the wii-mote I guess haha.

Anyways...not a whole lot to report on for either field of what this bloggity blog is about...Starting over with the weight loss, and praying for a healthy baby this year.

Take care all!  

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Happy New Year

I have to say that I am pretty happy that this year is over.  As you know, this year has been a tough one for me. I started a new job, quit that job, started another that I really do like.  I started seeing a therapist, finally. I grew stronger in my faith.  I sought help regarding our struggle with starting a family and got put on Metformin.. So...I guess that all in all 2011 wasn't really all that bad...a year of taking a step in the right direction I guess. So...with that in mind...Here's to 2012 and the amazing blessings that I see coming our way.  I hope that each of you are blessed beyond your hopes in 2012.  Happy New Year!

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In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Shot Down....

So...I pitched my idea for next Christmas to the family and they decided that they didn't think it was the best idea....nice, huh?  So...I guess that if they don't want to do it, they don't have to, but their gift from my husband and I will be a donation made in their name to one of our favorite Charities, or we will adopt a family with the money that the two of us would spend on them.And I will also suggest that instead of a gift for us, they give us a donation to put toward that Charity/Family.  I guess it doesn't need to be the entire family that participates, I just thought that maybe more people than just me would be willing to give instead of receive...I guess that's too much to ask for.

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Yeesh!

It's been a month since my last Blog post,  and a busy month it has been! I have been working my arse off, we took a trip to KC to visit family, and celebrated Christmas here at home.  Honestly I could have done without the trip to KC...I would have much rather stayed home and gotten some much needed projects accomplished.  It was just a bad time of year to travel.
I wasn't much in the mood for Christmas this year.  I have been getting more and more grinchy about Christmas in the past few years and this year was the worst yet.  It just makes me so sad all the focus that is put on gifts and money for a bunch of crap that we don't really need.  So...next year I am suggesting that our family, instead of buying gifts for each other, we put whatever money we'd spend on those gifts and adopt a family or donate it to our local homeless shelter, and go to church together. We'll see how that plays out with my family....

Anyways, I hope that you and yours had an amazing Christmas and that God has blessed you with all that you have prayed for in 2011.  I think that 2012 will have some amazing blessings for me and my family.

Happy New Year!

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

BUSY BEES!

Good day!  I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, and that you were able to spend it with people that you love.  Life has been pretty dang busy here.  Just that time of year I guess....but on top of that, work has been really difficult lately.  We have been working short handed lately, and "upper management" refuses to call in reinforcements for us.  Call me crazy, but I don't think that healthcare is a place where you should skimp on the help...because patients don't always get the care they need and deserve when there are not enough care takers to go around.  So, now we are all getting burned out and are working 6-7 days a week to help cover empty/really short shifts, we aren't even taking lunch breaks to make sure that every one of our patients are getting at least a smidgen of what they need to thrive.  And on days like today when our ER is busy and I have to be stuck down there...that only leaves less help.  It's VERY frustrating!  Haha.  But...we are trying to keep our spirits up and trying to be thankful for super busy days and having them go by really fast.  Anyways...that's enough bitching, haha.

In LB news...I've maintained since I last updated...boo...but I will take it since I haven't been very good at working out and making sure Im eating the correct things lately.  ONWARD!  I know I will feel a lot better once I start again, and maybe won't be so flippen exhausted all the time....

In Baby news....no big updates...but I think I am PMSing big time...and I feel so yucky, so Im sure that the "Red Menace" is on her way...Oh well...another chance to try again!  Now, if I could just get my husband to cooperate!

Have a GREAT week everyone!


In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

BIG NEWS!!

Well...not THE big news, but big news none the less.  I OVULATED!!!!  I am sooo happy!  I have had no period this month...so far anyways, because prior to this (as I blogged about previously) I hadn't ovulated at the "correct" time.  BUT, I finally have!  So...stay tuned! Prayers for baby dust please?  Thanks so much, and have a great week!

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Happy

Ok...so...(I know I start a lot of posts this way, haha) I just realized that I haven't updated about the ol' "Pounds" portion of this here blog.  This is partly because other things have been on my mind, and partly because I just haven't stepped on the scale in the past few weeks.  But, I will try to find a few minutes to do it at work tomorrow. (That's a nice thing about working at a hospital...there's no shortage of calibrated scales!)  Maybe that will be my goal...every Friday to step on the scale and update.  That will make me hold myself accountable for actually sticking to my healthier eating habits and exercise routine, haha. 

In "Pregnancy" news...I went and spoke to my Doc friend today again.  (He's so wonderful) I just had a few questions regarding taking the Metformin, average time spans between when women start taking it and conceiving and so on and so forth.  So...the answer is 6 to 8 months between starting Metformin and conceiving...average...Now, I am not the most patient person on earth...but, I find this more than acceptable.  He said that he is very optimistic for this to work for me, and is very confident that we are taking the correct steps to making me a mommy.  (YAY!) I am so very thankful for this man.  He has helped me in more ways than one, and he is so kind and generous and willing to help in any way he can.   People like him remind me that there are amazing people in this world who are willing to make a difference, and that is so refreshing. 



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In other news, I love my husband so much!  Haha! And, as of this moment, I am content, which is something I haven't been in a while. 

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Who Can Argue With That?

Well...I'm not giving up, but I'm not going to lie, I kind of want to.  I am emotionally exhausted, but my husband and I talked and decided that we just can't throw in the towel yet.  We will keep trying for another year while I am on Metformin and having regular cycles and continuing to lose weight.  After this year, if I'm still not pregnant, we will pursue other options. 

I know that this probably sounds silly to most/all of you, but the other night I asked God for a sign...a sign that we need to keep trying.  I asked for a specific sign, and a bit later, he provided that sign, exactly what I asked for.  I know that it wasn't just subconscious, because I was distracted and playing with my cats when the sign appeared, and I instantly remembered that this is what I asked for, what I begged for, and God is telling me to not give up.  So...who can argue with that?

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Desperation Is An Ugly Thing



I am having a really hard day today.  I feel heartbroken and helpless. I haven't ovulated this month, or at least if I have it was super early or will be super late.  I have tested every day for almost two weeks and they have all been negative.  After having so much hope last month and with starting another cycle this month....and then this...I hate this, I hate it.  I am desperate for help, desperate for hope, desperate for something to make me feel like this won't continue to be such a hard battle.  I am so sick of struggling that I'm about to just give up.  I try SO hard to give this up to GOD and just let Him have it...but it's hard.  I keep wondering what I can do,what I have to do to make this happen.  I am begging for a sign, a sign to either give up or keep trying...I just don't know what to do.  My heart has shattered today.  After trying to hold it together and have faith and hope for so long, I can't do it anymore.  I don't feel like I have anybody to talk to about this.  My family doesn't understand, many of my friends don't understand and I don't want to bother those that do.  My husband, amazing as he is, doesn't get it...he just keeps saying "We'll just have to keep trying", but yet he refuses to "try"...I know he feels used sometimes, but this is something that we both want and if he's not willing to try his damndest with me...I don't know what...it's just extremely frustrating.  I guess I just have to keep praying...begging for some kind of sign, or for somthing to happen. 



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In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Pre-Seed

Let's face it....trying to make a baby, isn't always the most romantic of situations.  Scheduling sex, peeing on sticks to see if you're ovulating/pregnant, checking temperatures, trying specific positions that may or may not be the most comfy, but provide the best "sperm flow".   Not exactly sexy.  So...us ladies might have a slight issue with dryness.  With that in mind....I ordered some Pre-Seed , a sperm-friendly lubricant for the hubs and I to try.  I just figured with everything else that we are fighting, we don't need one more hinderance using KY or Astroglide or some other OTC lube.    AGAIN, you may be thinking eww, TMI...but, some people may not know that some lubricants can slow down the swimmers and even defect them, which is fine if you're not trying to get pregnant. And some people may not know that this is available!  But...the link is highlighted above to click on that goes straight to the website that I ordered it from.  YAY! 

With this "miracle lube" came a precious little packet of "baby dust" with a little poem on the front of the packet that reads" This baby dust is special, and is being sent to you, hoping it will help, your fondest dreams come true."  It's just some baby shower confetti in a cute little bag, but I just think it's sweet.  A special little touch that does not go un-noticed.  Thanks Baby Hopes for giving us a little sparkle of hope in this sea of doubt!

Strength, Love & Faith,
~Charity