BUSY BEES!

Good day!  I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, and that you were able to spend it with people that you love.  Life has been pretty dang busy here.  Just that time of year I guess....but on top of that, work has been really difficult lately.  We have been working short handed lately, and "upper management" refuses to call in reinforcements for us.  Call me crazy, but I don't think that healthcare is a place where you should skimp on the help...because patients don't always get the care they need and deserve when there are not enough care takers to go around.  So, now we are all getting burned out and are working 6-7 days a week to help cover empty/really short shifts, we aren't even taking lunch breaks to make sure that every one of our patients are getting at least a smidgen of what they need to thrive.  And on days like today when our ER is busy and I have to be stuck down there...that only leaves less help.  It's VERY frustrating!  Haha.  But...we are trying to keep our spirits up and trying to be thankful for super busy days and having them go by really fast.  Anyways...that's enough bitching, haha.

In LB news...I've maintained since I last updated...boo...but I will take it since I haven't been very good at working out and making sure Im eating the correct things lately.  ONWARD!  I know I will feel a lot better once I start again, and maybe won't be so flippen exhausted all the time....

In Baby news....no big updates...but I think I am PMSing big time...and I feel so yucky, so Im sure that the "Red Menace" is on her way...Oh well...another chance to try again!  Now, if I could just get my husband to cooperate!

Have a GREAT week everyone!


In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

BIG NEWS!!

Well...not THE big news, but big news none the less.  I OVULATED!!!!  I am sooo happy!  I have had no period this month...so far anyways, because prior to this (as I blogged about previously) I hadn't ovulated at the "correct" time.  BUT, I finally have!  So...stay tuned! Prayers for baby dust please?  Thanks so much, and have a great week!

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Happy

Ok...so...(I know I start a lot of posts this way, haha) I just realized that I haven't updated about the ol' "Pounds" portion of this here blog.  This is partly because other things have been on my mind, and partly because I just haven't stepped on the scale in the past few weeks.  But, I will try to find a few minutes to do it at work tomorrow. (That's a nice thing about working at a hospital...there's no shortage of calibrated scales!)  Maybe that will be my goal...every Friday to step on the scale and update.  That will make me hold myself accountable for actually sticking to my healthier eating habits and exercise routine, haha. 

In "Pregnancy" news...I went and spoke to my Doc friend today again.  (He's so wonderful) I just had a few questions regarding taking the Metformin, average time spans between when women start taking it and conceiving and so on and so forth.  So...the answer is 6 to 8 months between starting Metformin and conceiving...average...Now, I am not the most patient person on earth...but, I find this more than acceptable.  He said that he is very optimistic for this to work for me, and is very confident that we are taking the correct steps to making me a mommy.  (YAY!) I am so very thankful for this man.  He has helped me in more ways than one, and he is so kind and generous and willing to help in any way he can.   People like him remind me that there are amazing people in this world who are willing to make a difference, and that is so refreshing. 



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In other news, I love my husband so much!  Haha! And, as of this moment, I am content, which is something I haven't been in a while. 

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Who Can Argue With That?

Well...I'm not giving up, but I'm not going to lie, I kind of want to.  I am emotionally exhausted, but my husband and I talked and decided that we just can't throw in the towel yet.  We will keep trying for another year while I am on Metformin and having regular cycles and continuing to lose weight.  After this year, if I'm still not pregnant, we will pursue other options. 

I know that this probably sounds silly to most/all of you, but the other night I asked God for a sign...a sign that we need to keep trying.  I asked for a specific sign, and a bit later, he provided that sign, exactly what I asked for.  I know that it wasn't just subconscious, because I was distracted and playing with my cats when the sign appeared, and I instantly remembered that this is what I asked for, what I begged for, and God is telling me to not give up.  So...who can argue with that?

In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity

Desperation Is An Ugly Thing



I am having a really hard day today.  I feel heartbroken and helpless. I haven't ovulated this month, or at least if I have it was super early or will be super late.  I have tested every day for almost two weeks and they have all been negative.  After having so much hope last month and with starting another cycle this month....and then this...I hate this, I hate it.  I am desperate for help, desperate for hope, desperate for something to make me feel like this won't continue to be such a hard battle.  I am so sick of struggling that I'm about to just give up.  I try SO hard to give this up to GOD and just let Him have it...but it's hard.  I keep wondering what I can do,what I have to do to make this happen.  I am begging for a sign, a sign to either give up or keep trying...I just don't know what to do.  My heart has shattered today.  After trying to hold it together and have faith and hope for so long, I can't do it anymore.  I don't feel like I have anybody to talk to about this.  My family doesn't understand, many of my friends don't understand and I don't want to bother those that do.  My husband, amazing as he is, doesn't get it...he just keeps saying "We'll just have to keep trying", but yet he refuses to "try"...I know he feels used sometimes, but this is something that we both want and if he's not willing to try his damndest with me...I don't know what...it's just extremely frustrating.  I guess I just have to keep praying...begging for some kind of sign, or for somthing to happen. 



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In Strength, Love & Faith. Thanks for reading ~ Charity